A second life set aside

After an absence of four months on this blog, I realize that certain aspects of my life have been set aside. Some of my recent discussions have led me to ask several questions. So I bring you some answers I found while this break...

SecondLife for me is a way to change my mind. But when my life is filled with happiness or I become very busy at work, I admit that it suits me to focus on these things. So to summarize ... "no news = good news"

At these moments, sometimes I also disappear without advising or even respond to your messages.
I need sometimes to go somewhere or to someone (like my family) to recharge myself. So even if I have not replied to your message since 2 months, it does not mean I'm dead ... right now it's mostly the summer that I enjoy.

Sometimes I meet someone and have a good time with it, I sometimes disappears without saying why ... If it is due to my usual absences, it may be that I go too afraid to bound to the person in question. I am unable to go beyond a certain limit, I love my man at house that why I can't doing certain things.

For those who know me, my switch side is very present. It all depends on who I am and context. My passion for bdsm is acknowledged. However, even if sometimes I wish to submit, I can not give myself to someone enough to say that I belong to him and become his/her thing. In the past, a mistress who was very important in my life hurt me emotionally. It took me a long time to heal, luckily my man was still behind me to support me.

Today I work hard to trust the people I like, but the task is still very difficult. So just for this reason, I can not be the thing someone else. When it is a roleplay, it suits me ... but when it gets serious, I retreat. This is the same in the other direction, having brave souls who submit to me fill me with happiness. I become quickly very protective and loving despite my little torture. By cons, if I feel that I like too much my pets, or they becomes too dependent of me, I say no there too. I love do to people that I love and I hate to give what I would not like to receive ... it is a rule to me, a principle. Forgiveness even to those to whom I made them pain.

I especially need to do for myself and also to answer some questions so that people understand me better ... Kisses to you all!